In the past few months, I have had a chance to spend time reading, and journaling. I have taken the road toward authenticity, and want to step out of my shell for a moment and publicly reflect.
I have found that I was afraid for a long time of using dark colors in my home. Afraid it would become a cave. Recently, I took a chance, and decided to use some warm earth tones in my living room. For the first time, I love to come home and sit in this room. It was a place I would not be comfortable in before. At this moment, it is glowing in the light of candles, and the scents of spiced oil. I am relaxed and calm in a way that I have not been in years, if not my entire life.
I laughed with my daughter tonight as she played with ginger ale and blueberries. Instead of a crying match before bed, she had time on her exercise ball, as I lifted the foot stool with my legs to work out a little bit myself. Then, the snack as I emptied the dishwasher, and she has headed to bed. I hear the tick tock of the clock on the wall. And that is all.
Maybe no one will read this. Maybe some will. I just wanted to reach out in this moment to say I think I found what I sought a year ago. Maybe most of my life. Quiet reflective moments, in a place that feels warm and wonderful to my inner most being. Plain and simple.
No, not plain, rich and monumental. But, simple just the same...
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