Did I do the right thing?
Okay, most days this thought runs through my head. Today it came strongly as I beat myself up over a misunderstanding with my Brian. I do not know how I became the monster from within, and over a dumb TV show. I have constantly thought about it. My boy did not want to admit to the tears in his eyes I stood there and argued with him over how he was feeling about something. When will I stop wanting to be in control? I do not want to push him away, especially when I pray daily that he will turn around and see the LIGHT. Man, I have got to stop this.
To top things off, his girlfriend's mother called him before 6:30 this morning. A---- went missing through the night, and was she here? She was not. Brian told me days ago that A---- was unhappy at home. I thought I encouraged them to talk to her mother. They felt I slammed the door. I see why, now. Stop right there. I was going to berate myself again. This mom didn't even have her daughter's cell phone number. Scary. They had to involve the state police, and Brian was questioned to see if he could think of somewhere she might have gone. He didn't have any new ideas, but her friend did. They found her safe and sound. Thank you, Lord.
She will be staying someone her mom is comfortable with, and the lines of communication are fuzzy, but opening.
It brought it all in perspective for me. I need to back down sometimes, but not give up. there is a difference. I need to keeping talking, and PRAYING. I might not be able to help Brian in any other way. But, I know he rests safely in the arms of his Heavenly father.
3 comments:
Boy-oh-Boy! I have SO had those conversations! Much clinging to God, much self awareness, much grace - and time, & it gets better. I have always been quick to repent, say sorry, make jokes and encourage him to talk & tell him I DO want to listen...by now they KNOW what we believe and why, they really do. But, what they want, is to share what they believe with us...its that transition from child/parent to adult/parent...
Keep on trucking on! :)
Maria
Phew...rough night/day there. You are right, don't beat yourself up. We try our best as mommies and just your willingness to admit things honestly is incredible. Hang in there. Feel kinda silly saying this, but I tagged you on my blog. Seems frivilous with all you have going on, but hopefully a way to spread you some sunshine on your day today.
I can not wait to post my 6 word memoir. I have been working it out in my head all day!
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